Aku kat sini bukan nak mengadu ataupon tunjuk kasihan .
Aku cumer nak kongsi aje sikit pengalaman aku kat dunia ini .

Aku umur 15 tahun ..
Namer aku A_____ R____ .
Aku ade blog yang berhabuk .
Dah bersepah ngn kata2 yang dah tak tersusun .

*note*
ade perkara yang aku ceritakan ni bukan yang benar . aku dengan die ajer tau .

Aku hanya insan yang biasa penuh dengan sifat2 yang buruk dari yang baik .
Aku mengaku yang aku ni rosak .
Aku tak pandai belajar .
Cumer ade satu kelebihan yang aku ade .
Main drum ..
Tu pon tak seberape .

Group asal aku Upbeats Percussion .
Group sekolah Rhythm Kiozk
Group gerek aku Bloco singapura .
Group kini StickShifts .

Tahun lepas ... tahun 2008 memang tahun sial aku .
Banyak hal aku buat .
Tak serabak sampai masuk home .
Aku ade lebih dari 50 offence slip .


Bulan dec ... Upbeats Percussion ade busking session kat orchard .
Mase tu aku masih kental lagi . masih lagi text2 pmpn lain . msih main cinta2 bodoh .
mase tu , aku nga gaduh ngn pompn ni . ade salah faham .
mase tengah busking tu ..
aku ternampak ...
Aku nampak perempuan ni . kakaknye kawan Upbeats .
Adek dier ...
Pakai tudung , lawa , anggun .
Aku pon senyum lah kat dier .
Tapi , dier jeling kat aku balik .

Sampai je rumah hari tu , aku on laptop gy cari dier kat multiply . kononnye nak Kenal2 laah .
Dah bbual kat multiply , bbual kat msn , da bbual kat msn , tukar nombor .
Kita main tarik2 tali .
Kali pertama kita kua samer kelakar betul . kiter gy dhoby ghaut , tengok wayang .
aku sesat =D da lamer tk gy ps =)
Luper ahh crite ape . ohhh Wedding game . crite local cina .
Lepas tu kite dudok kat steps lua PS bbual2 .
dier ceritekan pasal kehidupan dier , aku ceritakan kehidupan aku .
sumpah kehidupan kite berbeza .

lame2 . aku pon dah terpikat mase tu . tapi aku tak berani nk buat langkah pertama .
pengecut laa katekan ...
mase tu bulan january tak salah . lepas birthday aku .

kite pon berkenalan2 .

19 MAY 09'
kite memang plan nk jumper . takde apape tujuan cumer nk lepak aje kat tepi pantai . rase2 dalam jam 06.57 pm . kite plan nk go together ahh . attached .
aku pun agree .

kite bermula perlahan-lahan . dalam mase 5 bulan kite bersama tu .
aku mengaku , yang itulah hari2 yang aku sangat2 gembira .
ade pasangan untuk mengadu masalah .
ade "pillar of support" laa katekan .

8 NOV 09'
keadaan tak begitu baik .
dapat tau yang aku retain sec 3 .
aku malu , tapi aku tebalkan muka . ego macam siak ? aku tau ..
die marah laah kat aku . siape tak marah kaan ? tul tak ?
mase tu die tengah menjalani peperiksaan O dier . nga overnite kat rumah kawan .
kite bbual laah kat fon .
aku taknak ceritekan ape jadi . kite pon berpisah .
mase tu tense giler . aku rase yang aku kehilangan sesuatu yang agak berharga .

berape hari kemudian , aku pon text dier .
mase tu sumernye ok .

22 NOV 09'
kite pon kembali .

lepas tu ? cari2 laa sendiri =)

look , what im trying to do or say here is that i d k what other ways to show my love for u . our relationship , theres more ups then downs . im not perfect , or in fact , nobody's perfect .
please2 think .. what i said earlier on .
things were not right ? it can be right .
i WILL make it right .

here is a fact about me . im scared to express any feelings through the phone .
i cant show that im sad when im sad . but i can show im happy when im sad .
cos its really hard for me to show u my real feelings .
have i ever scold u ?
put aside the ego-ness . i love you with everything i got .
compare with drums , i want u .
compare with food , i want u .. k tu tk perlu .

giving u the time to think abt us .
im leaving the house at 0630am sharp .
going to police academy for something .
will be back on tuesday .

i will delete this post on tuesday .
hopefully ure reading this ...

renungkanlaah wahai kekasihku .
First of all ! i wud like to say sorry (again) for not updating my blog for like Months !
suffered a huge blast previously .
laptop sent for repair .
and now another blast !

life is full of demanding thoughts .
why cant it just be perfect ...

to vent my anger , i will start blogging ! yeay !
i dont think theres anyone reading my blog already cos i know that i've not been updating for ages .
so ppl dont even care to read my blog ... hah

okaaay .. fuck the fakeshits and start !

just had a show just now at marina barrage with BM ..
it was great .

suffered a shot on the head today . somewhere between my pair of eyes .
i think its a wake up call for me . another one perhaps ? on a different issue .
i wanna apologise to that particular someone ...
if ure reading this . i know that the relationship we have has always been not that healthy .
i hope that everything would change back to the normal state and all the best during the journey . 3dec - 17dec
hope i will be there during ur POP =)

sape tk sediihh kaan .

just forget abt that matter and im gonna start on the next topic ..

the day before the show at suntec .. went to School OF Music Clef .
i arranged a Drum Trial just to try out the school . guess who was my so called "teacher" ?
dang ! Gilbert Nogales showed up ! the winner for the drumfest competition . 2 straight years .
damn his really good . and coincidentally he knows jeremy . RK's instructor .
what a small world .
we exchange ideas and he thought me the basics of the triplets and the right method of playing the kick . he is infact really relaxed . he was in a position that he is damn comfortable in playing the drums .
we jammed for like 5 mins exchanging solos . of cos he has the most =)

drums cant make me rich .. im aware of that . but drums made me free my mind and thats why i love to be on drums .

but for now , my greatest fear is my studies . will put on more attention into it and yeaa . untuk buktikan yang aku boleh .




presenting ! the STICKSHIFTS ! hahahahahaha .





hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha . k mepek .

i love my girlfriend =)